Tuesday, May 19, 2009 @ 11:55 PM
today is the day , the worst day of my life , im falling!
actually went to alot of places today cos teacher didnt come again , but in the evening ! something's bad ! she's got no feeling for me anymore ! i could not believe it , its a dream ? a reality? but nvm ! even though every single minute ill still rmb ur face , ur voice and ur love u gave me ! its so hard to erase u from my mind ! where 's ur promisses? all are empty promisses isnt it ? all the whole months im waiting went down the drain ! what u wan , i gave u ! i dunid u to return the money u get it ! returning the money will make my wound recover ? no wonder these few days u are cold towards me , u said u need to study ! YEA , i didnt disturb u during ur exams period ! everyday and for 3 weeks we didnt talk more than 1min per day ! 1 sms per day to me ! i dun mind as u promiss aftr exams u wanna go out for movie with me ! aftr wad i get ? aftr exam break? WTF? u still can say that its not ur fault ! okay its very okay , my fault alright ? im not a good boyf that will give u wad u wan ... i cannot slp every night just to worry abt u and wad i get is just a piece of shit! u scold and get agitated easily almost everyday , i kept giving in to u ! wad's more ? nvm , even if every single min i think of u , ill look on the bright side ! u dun feel hurt , u dun cry ! mutant ? that time still say u will cry if break up ! cos diff to put down this relationship! all are LIES ! I SERIOUSLY HATE PPL GIVING ME EMPTY PROMISSES ! i dunid any gal for the time being ! u wan u get a boyf whom is better than me by 101% ok ? im just a bastard in ur eyes ! u wanna make friend with me aftr all these ? i think probably not , hurt me too deep to be ur friend ! for me , ill just wash u and everything off my mind ! but i cant ? so dun ask me to be ur fren anymore ! please dlt all ur contact which contain this name LANDYCHIA ! he's no longer here , he's dead in ur heart ! isnt it ? where ever i go and wadeva i do , it will bring back the past when me and u enjoying ! the things u gave and other things ! i couldnt bear to throw it cos its all ur hardwork! anyw thanks for giving me ur love this 9months ! i appreciate it even though we keep on quarrel and keep on shouting at me ! ill still appreciate it ! now u get to have freedom with boys ! all the best ! anyw thanks to those ask me wad happen and cheer me up ! especially xiang ! ill try not to act strong -_- and ill not look for gals for now ! and looking for to sat's event ! (: it really happen so sudden ! if i didnt sms and ask whether she still wan me anot , she will just keep me in the dark every single day ! well , isit that im brave enough to face up ? i guess not ! my heart now is so freaking fragile ! this relationship is the relationship i treasure most ! and its the most hurting relationship ! life goes on ? no no no ! nvm i dun wanna say already ! the more i say the more i feel like crying !?!?! just like writing a novel ! no happy ending ! same to this relationship ! ill respect her decision then ! she go her way , ill go my way ! she get her prince charming while ill be a loner ! tuesday MAY 19 2009 ! THE DAY ILL NEVER FORGET ! scattered pieces from my heart! hais!